Hey there!

This is going to  be super vague, and I will probably tell you the whole story another time... but here it goes. (I am making this in order to get my feelings out there)
I miss him. I miss him more than anyone will know. But, I know he has what he wants. I am the reason this relationship got torn apart. I had to end it over something stupid, and by the time I was ready to forgive and forget, he had moved on. (We were "together: for about two weeks, but that ended). I had to hurt him so much, and that should never have happened. I just wish for both of them to be happier then they ever have been, If he is happy, then I am happy, since he got what he wanted, and if she is happy, than I know that she feels lucky to have him, unlike how I felt.
I wish this is all one bad dream, one that I will wake up from. But it is not. Sometimes I imagine scenarios in my head that are of him saying he misses me. But I know that is not the case. I just hope he thinks about me from time to time. Because it feels like I think about him every hour. I wish I didn't, but I do.
We used to write letters to each other. One of the things he wrote me was "Don't worry about the future, because I know we can get through it together." I ruined that. I worried about it, and now I feel like I am at my lowest. It feels like no one ells could possibly feel this low, but from what they tell me people feel like this all the time.
I miss him. More than he will ever know.

Thank you,
xoxoxo

The beginning

Hello dudes,

For the obvious reasons I am not going to release my name, age or location. But, if you read enough of these I am sure you will be able to figure out my age and location to an extent. My name may be another story. Who knows, maybe you have a really good detective hat on.

I am making this blog for a number reasons. One, I find it hard to communicate my emotions verbally, and although no one may read this, at least I have my thoughts out of my head.

The second reason as to why I am creating this is because I know it it hard to believe people feel the same as you in different points in your life. You may think that no one has ever been this hurt, or this sad, or this excited. So I am going to write in this in order for you to know I am here with you. I had had my low points, happy points and points where I dream. And this is the way I will show you, even if you do not know any of my personal information. (But, I guess my thoughts are as personal as they get.... right?)

And lastly, I feel like if I say my opinions out loud then I will be judged. By writing my thoughts down like this, no one can know who is saying this. And you can agree, or disagree. I would also love to know your ideas on the topic.

Before you go on reading onto other posts, (if you have not gotten sick of me yet...) understand that my spelling and grammar is awful. There is only so much the red squiggle is capable to do. And second, do not expect to have posts regularly, or at a certain time. I might do a million one day, then go weeks without posting. But, what am I thinking? Only the really good blogs get big.

See you around,
xoxoxo