Hey there!

This is going to  be super vague, and I will probably tell you the whole story another time... but here it goes. (I am making this in order to get my feelings out there)
I miss him. I miss him more than anyone will know. But, I know he has what he wants. I am the reason this relationship got torn apart. I had to end it over something stupid, and by the time I was ready to forgive and forget, he had moved on. (We were "together: for about two weeks, but that ended). I had to hurt him so much, and that should never have happened. I just wish for both of them to be happier then they ever have been, If he is happy, then I am happy, since he got what he wanted, and if she is happy, than I know that she feels lucky to have him, unlike how I felt.
I wish this is all one bad dream, one that I will wake up from. But it is not. Sometimes I imagine scenarios in my head that are of him saying he misses me. But I know that is not the case. I just hope he thinks about me from time to time. Because it feels like I think about him every hour. I wish I didn't, but I do.
We used to write letters to each other. One of the things he wrote me was "Don't worry about the future, because I know we can get through it together." I ruined that. I worried about it, and now I feel like I am at my lowest. It feels like no one ells could possibly feel this low, but from what they tell me people feel like this all the time.
I miss him. More than he will ever know.

Thank you,
xoxoxo